Ruby

B Y   J U L Y
lyrics by: Melanie Krahmer
music by: Melanie Krahmer & Rich Libutti
©2004 sirsymusic (BMI)

You came around
Holding the sun
Pouring it out
So I could almost feel it
You piled up the days
To give me some time
And built me a throne
Where I could be your queen
My gravity is
Starting to show
So don’t hold me high
I’ll only let you down
Still you refuse to give up on me at all

My mouth is wet
With wanting
The words to leave my tongue
But my scars will keep for summers
So baby you should run

By July you wear me down
By July you wear me out

I am the one
Holding the clouds
Drinking the rainUntil I drown me out
I’m digging me up
I’m cutting me down
Why do you want yourself
A messed up queen?
But there you wait
Counting the days
Catching me up
So that I’ll love me too
Still you refuse to give up on me at all

You tie me up
In knots
And complicate my plan
I used to get off easy
Without showing my hand

By July you wear me down
By July you wear me out
And you wear me like a crown
But I wear ruby like a frown

Rain, Rain
Go Away
Please come back some other day
‘Oh that sunshine
Could be mine
If I’d just let it in

How do you keep
Holding the sun
Pouring it out
When everything is raining
How do I stop
Throwing me up
Throwing me out
So I can be your queen
How do you wait
Saving the days
Hoping that time
Will let me love me too
Still you refuse to give up on me at all

By July you wear me down
By July you wear me out
July wears me like a crown
But I wear ruby like a frown

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H O S T A G E

lyrics by: Melanie Krahmer
music by: Melanie Krahmer & Rich Libutti
©2004 sirsymusic (BMI)

Gathered my ghosts
And all my secrets
Buried them deep as China
Bought me an easy
Plastic Jesus
And smothered my old
Messiah

And all this halfway is killing me baby
All this halfway is killing us baby
And you still won’t meet me
Half way

What do you hold hostage?
What do you hold hostage?

Bulletproof dress
And sunken armor
Ready to take the monsters
What makes us choose the
Things that keep us
Broken and lost and
Haunted

All this nothing means everything baby
All this nothing means everything baby
We beat ourselves up over
Nothing

What do you hold hostage?
What do you hold hostage?

It’s on me now
It’s got me down
For now

What do you hold hostage?
What do you hold hostage?
It takes me down

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F I N E
lyrics by: Melanie Krahmer
music by: Melanie Krahmer & Rich Libutti
©2004 sirsymusic (BMI)

It’s 4am at the grocery store
And no one here
Asks me why
I’m sitting still with the paperbacks
Trying hard
Not to cry
I scan my way over the magazines
‘Seventeen’ easy ways to keep your guy

If I could drive you out of my mind
Then I could say that everything’s fine

So I’m frozen here like the Popsicles
Just wondering
What went wrong
Florescent light buzzing up above
Sings to me
Girl be strong
With a lost dog
And a pick up truck
I could easily be the subject of a country song

If I could drive you out of my mind
Then I could say that everything’s fine

What does it mean
To Be Sorry
Please let this be
Just a bad dream
‘Cause I keep seeing you there smiling
That smile was supposed to be just for me

So, if it was “just a kiss”
Like you said
Then why do I fancy you two dead
Yeah, she’s all lipstick and cigarettes
And she’s all the stuff that turns your head

If I could drive you out of my mind
Then I could say that everything’s fine
Yeah, I’m fine

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P E T
lyrics by: Melanie Krahmer
music by: Melanie Krahmer & Rich Libutti
©2004 sirsymusic (BMI)

Don’t you ever get tired of being sick
You take me like a pill to get your kicks
Eat all your words ‘cause you can’t take them back
Sticks and stones go down easier than that

You say it’s for keeps
I say it’s for regrets
I will never be your pet

So I’m strung out here on your rocks again
‘Cause like a siren your tricks lured me in
Treading in the wake of your tidal wave
I held my breath, my head up, playing brave

You say it’s for keeps
I say it’s for regrets
I will never be your pet
Come clean – you wanted a dirty frontier
I’m worth more than that so don’t settle here

You say it’s for keeps
I say it’s for regrets
I will never be your pet

I will never be your pet

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L I E   T O   M E
lyrics by: Melanie Krahmer
music by: Melanie Krahmer & Rich Libutti
©2004 sirsymusic (BMI)

He’s the priest
You
Lie through your teeth
To
So he will feed you your dose of sympathy
Free you from your little felonies
See the you that you would like to be

And so you lie
Lie in that bed again
Lie
Lie to you your own head again
And everything you are is just a
Lie to me

Pollyanna
Who’s your man now
Can’t you see
It’s all just a fallacy
So please
Go down with some dignity
‘Cause these little cracks are beginning to bleed

And so you lie
Lie in that bed again
Lie
Lie to you your own head again
And everything you are is just a
Lie to me

Taken like thieves
Finding Reprieve
They’ll love you

So you lie
Lie in that bed again
Lie
Lie to you your own head again
When everything you are is just a lie
Then you lie
Lie in that bed again
Lie
Lie to you your own head again
Lie
Lie like it’s medicine
Lie
Lie ‘til they let you in
And everything you are is just a lie to me
So lie to me

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S O U L   S U C K E R
lyrics by: Melanie Krahmer
music by: Melanie Krahmer & Rich Libutti
©2004 sirsymusic (BMI)

I want to drag you down
So you’ll be here with me
Want you to give it up
Your stupid little dream

See– I hate my job, I hate my wife, I hate my stupid little life
But I love to give my advice about what is wrong with you

Hey you, Soul Sucker
You’re filling it with Jealousy
Hey you, Soul Sucker
You’re spilling it all over me
Hey you

I’ll turn my back on you
While you give it away
Nobody here can help
But hear what I have to say

So excuse my crash, excuse my sting, excuse me for not listening
But I don’t get why you don’t see that everything is about me

Hey you, Soul Sucker
You’re filling it with Jealousy
Hey you, Soul Sucker
You’re spilling it all over me
Hey you

Only the lucky
Get right to living
They don’t keep looking
For all the lacking

Hey you, Soul Sucker
You’re filling it with Jealousy
Hey you, Soul Sucker
You’re spilling it all over me
Hey you

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S P A R K
lyrics by: Melanie Krahmer
music by: Melanie Krahmer & Rich Libutti
©2004 sirsymusic (BMI)

So I wrote me a letter
And asked for some better days
Supposed to come from within

But when the mail was delivered
It didn’t deliver me
I’m still stuck in my skin

See I haven’t been sleeping
Been keeping my eyes shut tight
So I don’t have to see

How I lose my nerve
With every word that spills
When your pen points at me

I want you
To get off my
Spark, Spark
‘Cause I’m waiting for it to catch
Yeah I’ve got this
Spark, Spark
And something’s got to catch

You make me feel like a B side
Like I pale beside you
As the bright number one

You’re looking down through your halo
While I’m running through amens
And just dodging your thumb

I can’t wait for your blessing
Or keep second guessing
Every thing that I do

So if you need a reason
Call me heathen
I don’t believe in you

I want you
To get off my
Spark, Spark
‘Cause I’m waiting for it to catch
Yeah I’ve got this
Spark, Spark
And something’s got to catch

So don’t give me sincere
Like a cheap souvenir
From everywhere I’ll never be

And of yourself
You’re so full
So go on wax critical
I don’t care what you think of me

Get off of my
Spark, Spark
‘Cause I’m waiting for it to catch
Yeah I’ve got this
Spark, Spark
And something’s got to catch

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M E   A N D   M Y   E G O
lyrics by: Melanie Krahmer
music by: Melanie Krahmer & Rich Libutti
©2004 sirsymusic (BMI)

Me and my ego
Everywhere that we go
People tiptoe by

‘Cause we’ve got a pocketful
Of eggshells for
Making our landmines

Me and my ego
Are ripe with control
So pick your words wisely

‘Cause we can pluck you up
Or weed you out
Without apology

So come on and give it up
Come on and give it up
If I get what I want
You get what you want
Come on and give it up
Come on and give it up
If I get what I want
You get what you want

Me and my ego
Will sell you out, you know
And fake our harmony

So, listen close
As greed plays on
Like a symphony

Me and my ego
Say “go on with the show”
And “babe you will go far…

If you just dumb yourself down
And sex yourself up”
Another generic superstar

So come on and give it up
Come on and give it up
If I get what I want
You get what you want
Come on and give it up
Come on and give it up
If I get what I want
You get what you want

What will you do for me baby
What I can do for you
What will you do for me baby
What I can do for you

Come on and give it up
Come on and give it up
If I get what I want
You get what you want
Come on and give it up
Come on and give it up
If I get what I want
You get what you want

What I can do for you

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A G A I N
lyrics by: Melanie Krahmer
music by: Melanie Krahmer & Rich Libutti
©2004 sirsymusic (BMI)

He said maybe
I should go
And I said I think
You already know
And you are so good
At letting me down
That at least I can count on you somehow

So why don’t I meet you at the end
‘Cause I can’t go through this
Again, again

He said maybe I should be
More than I thought I wanted to be
See this all has become so hard
And we weren’t supposed to get this far

So why don’t I meet you at the end
‘Cause I can’t go through this
Again, again

This can never be, my love
This can never be

I’ve lived through your ghost
I’ve lived through your most
And I’ve lived through your fall
But I just can’t live through this all again

Oh, So this can never be
This can never be, my love

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B L A C K E R   T H A N   B L U E
lyrics by: Gregory Nash & Melanie Krahmer
music by: Andres Jatombliansky/Melanie Krahmer/Rich Libutti
©2004 sirsymusic (BMI)

You’re there safe miles away
My Gotham city’s not the same
I make the trip alone
The billboards seem to scream your name

I cling to photographs
While you hide my life in drawers
You make appearances
Still see your shadow at my door

You pray for clarity
Yet disregard the obvious
While I sit here like a jerk
Grasping at remains of us

Blacker than blue
I owe it all to you my
Blacker than blue
How can it live so long here

I sketch my angel’s face
And keep it in the sheets with me
Hoping with random luck
My dreams might keep me company

Communication lost
Although we still do share the moon
How long can this go on
I feel my autumn closing soon

I felt the candle fall
When you took the easy way out
You snuff out your guilt and say
That I’ll be better off somehow

Blacker than blue
I owe it all to you my
Blacker than blue
How can it live so long here

Sad songs that spin away
Slowly take my place
I dance alone as autumn slowly falls from grace
Slowly falls from grace

Blacker than blue
I owe it all to you my
Blacker than blue
How can it live so long here